Does anyone have a spouse in law enforcement who is in Iraq under a contract? ?

My fiance went to Iraq 3 weeks ago and will be there for 12 mos. He isn't in the military, but he is a law enforcement officer training Iraqi Police. I was dealing with things so well up until last night. I had a dream about him and have sense then been really emotional. I don't know how to get ped the feelings inside. I have searched online for support groups etc. that have people online to talk too and respond who are going through the same thing or similar, but have failed to find any recent ones. I need to have others to talk too that can help me through this time. I work, I go to school, I have a 14 year old son, but have never experienced anything in the last few years without my fiance. We were always inseparable. Now, I can't do it without him. It is so hard to hide that from him because I know he needs to hear me being strong for his sake. I am sure he is going through more pain than I am. I haven't lived in my current location that long, so I don't have too many friends, and the ones I do have are into things that I am not. I started a scrapbook, but then that just made me even more sad. I am tired of the hurting, the dreams, and thinking that it is still 350 some days until he comes back home. Time isn't flying. He is only able to e mail when available and I have only received two emails in the last three weeks. He has a cell phone in which I call daily just to hear his voice on his voice mail greeting. However, there is no service where he is currently. This is way harder than I thought. Is there anyone on here that can relate and maybe we can start talking? Any and all advice is strongly encouraged. Thank you!